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Episode 9
Kyu Wan!
Don't come near!
Kyu Wan, come down and let's talk.
Kyu Wan, why are you doing this?
Don't come near!
No!
Kyu Wan...
Please...
If I get the surgery, I won't be able to sing again.
I'll never be able to sing again.
No, Kyu Wan.
It's not like that.
No Kyu Wan, your mom's right.
It'll just be a treatment.
Trust us, and come down.
Stop lying.
I heard everything!
Kyu Wan.
Aren't you scared?
I'm not scared of dying at all.
Not at all!
I...
I'm scared.
If I die, I'll be all alone.
I don't want to be alone.
My bunny and my brother are in heaven...
but, I don't think I'll be able to go there.
I've hurt too many people.
Even if people hate me and call me stupid...
I want to be alive.
At least, I can be around other people.
But Kyu Wan, a lot of people love you.
I'm envious of you.
So, you shouldn't do this.
If you die, the people who love you will be very sad.
Because they won't be able to see you even if they want to.
I'm still alive even when everyone hates me.
You can't die.
You have a mom and a dad.
I didn't have either since a long time ago.
I get scared just standing at the top of a slide.
Hurry, and come down. I'm getting dizzy.
Hurry.
Thank you, Kyu Wan.
Move him to the ER.
Remove the abscess.
Yes.
Dr. Ko.
Did you ever administer Heta Vizen to a patient?
Just say that you administered it.
And don't forget to add that the director knew about it.
Who cares if you lose your license?
I...
I will give you a seat on the board.
Did you administer it or not?
Heta Vizen...
I never administered it.
Then, Professor Kim Do Han.
Did you ever use it?
No.
Then, I'll ask the director.
Were you aware of any use of this drug?
Heta Vizen...
I'm the vice president.
- This is how you investigate? - We are just asking a few questions.
Are you prosecutors?
Bring us clear evidence first.
If you keep this up, we will have to take steps, too.
Kyu Wan, this is not a surgery.
We are just taking the pus from your neck.
So, don't worry. Okay?
Don't worry. This will be over soon.
I'm going to start.
What do you mean?
Kyu Wan wasn't listening to music.
There was nothing in his mp3 player.
Kyu Wan wasn't using the mp3 player to listen to music.
He didn't want to hear any sound, so he was using the earphones as plugs.
I'm sure he didn't want to listen to music, either.
What kind of nonsense are you saying?
This isn't nonsense.
When I was young, I didn't want to hear my friends teasing me...
So, I used to plug up my ears, too.
But...
You really won't let him have the surgery?
No.
Never.
That's not good...
Not good...
You have to overcome this.
What use would that be?
I've already lost my conscience.
It wasn't your fault.
You did that for Park Shi On.
That's only an excuse.
I could have used other methods to keep Shi On here.
I was being too rash.
Let the vice president take care of this.
This is not about your conscience.
Do Han...
I hope you won't fall.
Like this undeserving teacher.
As a mother...
How can she not do anything even after that happened to her son?
I know...
Other moms would try to get the surgery done no matter what.
She's gone crazy over that choir. And she calls herself a mother...
I guess there's Sim Bong who sold his daughter for a mere 300 sacks of rice.
That's not a small amount.
One sack of rice weighs about 144 kilograms.
300 sacks times 144 kilograms. That's 43,200 kilograms, or 43.2 tons.
Currently there are 20 kilograms of rice in one bag. That would mean 2,160 bags.
If we calculate a current bag of rice to be 40,000 won...
2,160 times 40,000 won. That would be 86,400,000 won.
At the market, they were selling 20 kg of rice for 18,000 won.
Oh... Really?
I could have used other methods to keep Shi On here.
Did you want to see me?
Tell Shi On to come see me.
Are you going to tell him today?
- Please think about it a little bit more. - About what?
You saw before...
Dr. Park didn't make any mistakes.
He's just starting to learn.
There are tens of thousands of decisions that a surgeon has to make on a moment's notice.
And you want to acknowledge him because of that one incident?
How long will we have to wait for him to have the right decision making skills?
One year? Ten years?
Nobody knows that.
But there is hope.
I'm sending him to another department, so he doesn't lose that hope.
You scared me...
What the heck?
Would you like some ice cream?
I don't want any, go!
This ice cream divides into two.
Here.
You don't understand what I'm saying...
Calluses and cuts...
What?
There are calluses and cuts on your hand.
I'm most envious of hands that have calluses and cuts on them.
It's a hand that's been through many surgeries.
You have many more than Professor Kim or Dr. Cha.
I want to become a surgeon soon, and have calluses and cuts on my hands, too.
That's my dream.
What the heck are you saying?
Stop talking nonsense, and go!
Enjoy.
I'm sure it was Executive Director Lee.
We destroyed all records of the drug use.
Yes.
What about the FDA?
Okay.
I understand.
Thank you.
Why are you just sitting there?
I was thinking about what Park Shi On said before.
I just feel bad for him.
I don't think I ever really hated him.
- But, he must think that. - I felt bad, too.
What's wrong with you guys when you know his condition?
This doesn't have to do with his condition.
Even animals know when they are being hated.
Park Shi On doesn't listen and he may cause troubles...
but, he's not a bad kid.
Hey.
Causing trouble makes you a bad kid.
It's not like you never caused trouble.
Why's that kid talking to me like that?
- The issues with the FDA will be settled by today. - You don't need to tell me.
Don't get involved with hospital matters anymore.
If you leave because of this, what will happen to all your hard work?
If I did wrong, I should take full responsibility, and leave.
What about all the students who respect you? And Dr. Park who thinks of you as his own father?
You'll be hurting all of them.
No.
My leaving will be the last lesson I teach to my students.
Take the proposal you gave me, and leave.
If you decline, it will lead to a bigger problem.
After I see you leave, I will leave, myself.
After you are done with Kyu Wan, switch your department.
To the clinical pathology department.
I already talked to the professor there.
This is my recommendation letter. Hold onto it.
You're not going to take it?
I don't want to take it.
I'm going to become a pediatrics surgeon. I'm not going to another department.
Are you rebelling against me?
I'm not rebelling. I'm just telling you my dream.
Becoming a surgeon is an unrealistic dream for you.
Becoming a clinical pathologist is realistic.
I don't know about that. I'm going to become a surgeon.
- You don't understand what I'm saying? - I know you don't like me.
But I don't care if you hate me more. Please let me stay here.
Just listen to me!
Did I tell you to give up on becoming a doctor?
You think surgeons are the only doctors?
I'm saying this for you, so listen!
Professor Kim, you should talk to him later.
Park Shi On.
Yes.
Professor Kim's not doing that because he hates you.
You know that, right?
No, he's sending me away because he hates me.
Up next is Chopin's Nocturne Op. 9, No. 2.
Yes.
Shi On.
Listen carefully to what I'm going to say.
Okay.
You'll be okay at the hospital even if I'm not around, right?
You can answer me.
Are you going somewhere?
No...
I'm just asking you about the future.
If you are not around, I'll be very sad.
Very.
Shi On.
You've grown up enough to be okay even without my help.
No.
I'm still young.
No.
The way you care for your patients... You're not young at all.
I learn from you.
That's why you are an adult.
Whether I stay or not is not that important to you anymore.
As I was a friend to you...
you need to become a good friend to the sick children.
Do you understand?
As you said, I'll be a friend to the kids.
But...
I hope that you won't leave me.
If anything hurts, let me know.
I'll make it stop hurting.
Are you upset that you won't be able to sing?
I'm not upset.
I still want to die.
You see...
All I ever did was sing since I was four years old.
Before I even started talking...
I didn't go to school, or meet with friends.
I didn't even play games.
If I can't sing, then I'm nothing.
I think I understand what you're saying.
I may not be able to become a doctor, either.
People tell me not to become a doctor.
Why?
I'm different from other people.
I'm kind of stupid because of that.
I can't understand well what others are saying...
I cause trouble...
Still, you have hope.
Hope?
Even if people tell you not to become a doctor, you can continue to try.
Until you become one.
Until I become one?
Yes.
Until you become one.
But...
I can't even try if I get the surgery done.
I want him to get discharged tomorrow morning.
Kyu Wan's condition is much worse than how it appears on the outside.
All we did was remove the pus to get the swelling down. It's still infected inside.
- We need to depart next week. - The long flight might worsen his condition.
There are hospitals in Germany. He can get the treatment there.
That's not the only problem. He tried to commit suicide.
He needs psychological rest. He needs professional help.
That will never happen again.
I will give him psychological rest.
If you have nothing else to say, I'm leaving.
Wait!
You won't get him the surgery even in Germany, right?
And you said you would give him psychological rest.
How will you do that when your priority is not his health?
Is it a doctor's job to interfere with a parent's child rearing?
I'm not getting involved in your child rearing. I'm just worrying about his health.
Go to the pediatrics ward, and take a look at other mothers.
They can't even bear to watch their children get injections.
You must not be married.
Every household has a different way of loving their child.
In any case...
you can't take him without the doctor's permission.
Do as you wish.
If I take him, that's the end.
Yes.
We have a five year old boy in the ER injured from a car accident.
Hemoperitoneum is suspected, and he has extremely low blood pressure.
The blood pressure isn't rising. The blood transfusion is not enough.
Just continue.
- I'll raise RBC, FFP, and PC. - Okay.
The spleen is badly damaged. It will be hard to salvage it.
Tie up the splenic artery first.
Mixter.
Metzenbaum.
Tie.
Cut.
The blood pressure is rising. We got the vitals.
- Dr. Cha, you take care of the rest. - Yes, sir.
Forceps.
Why are you out here?
Mom doesn't know.
My dream...
Whether it's my real dream.
Then, do you have a different dream?
My dream is not to become part of a famous choir.
Just as doctors heal sick people.
I want to heal people's hearts with my song.
That's such a cool dream.
That's a really cool dream.
Going to Germany...
Wearing beautiful robes...
And singing in grand halls...
I don't care about that.
I want to sing to the people who really need my songs.
Her name is Lee Eun Ok. She's two years younger than you.
Eun Ok doesn't have a mom.
So, she thinks about her mom in heaven while listening to your songs.
She really can't speak?
No.
But, she's gotten a lot better.
Just a while ago, she was really like a dog.
Looking at her expressions, I think she likes you better than me.
She likes holding your hand better than listening to your songs.
Eun Ok.
Say, 'Oppa.' (Big Brother/Friend)
'Oppa.'
Good job.
Good job, Eun Ok.
Dr. Park, may I see you?
She gave up the guardianship?
Eun Ok's aunt gave up her guardianship.
We got a call from the management office.
They wanted to know what we are going to do about Eun Ok.
Then, Eun Ok is an orphan?
Yes.
How can she do that?
That's not good.
She can't do that.
Are you okay?
I'm fine.
You know what I hate the most, right?
Mistakes, excuses...
And lies.
I never lied to you.
Sitting here alone means that you are lying.
Seriously...
Can't you just let it pass once?
If I let it pass?
What if you get caught by the kids?
How do you think I was when I lost the first patient during surgery?
Probably as I imagine.
Without any feelings... Logical and cold.
Yeah.
I thought that death was just part of a doctor's duty.
But, I couldn't eat or drink anything other than water for a week.
I don't know the reason.
And, this is the first time I'm telling anyone about that time.
You're eating well, right?
Then, that's fine.
You are better than me.
I won't tell you to get over it.
Just struggle a little bit, and come back.
Yes, sir. I'll be quick to regain my mental health.
Really?
Then you should perform the surgery next week for Jung Min.
What?
You were being so nice... Why are you doing this?
Stop complaining. This will be your first official surgery.
The first two were temporary.
If you are unhappy, then you should become a professor, too.
I heard about her guardianship problem.
Let's find a way.
We can put our minds together.
If Eun Ok goes to an orphanage, the other kids will hate her because she can't talk or play.
Like me.
Do you really think that everyone will hate you?
I didn't know before, but now I think I know how it feels to be mad.
I get mad that people hate me.
But...
- Like a fool, I can't even show anger. - Who says you are a fool?
Why do you keep saying that?
Everyone hates you?
Nurse Nam, Nurse Jo, Dr. Han, In Hye, and me...
What about us?
We are nothing?
People don't hate you because you are a fool.
You become foolish because you think that everyone will hate you.
Do it more.
About Professor Kim telling you to go to the clinical pathology department...
I'll stop that, no matter what.
Although I can't guarantee you anything.
You should eat the beef rolls. I'll just eat the vegetable rolls.
Aren't you sick of eating rolls?
Actually, I've become tired of eating triangular rolls.
But, why do you keep on eating them?
I am sick of it, but I eat them because the triangular shape is fun.
If you start eating it at the tip, it feels like you are eating the top of a mountain.
You have a unique taste.
Right?
There are many qualified doctors...
But, how about keeping Dr. Park Shi On at our hospital?
As you know, he has many flaws as a surgeon.
You are right.
Even if his autistic tendencies improve, the guardians will continue to be nervous.
So, I was thinking...
we should make Dr. Park the best clinical pathologist.
A pediatric clinical pathologist.
I found out that you also looked into that department for Dr. Park.
When I heard that, I was impressed by your insight.
Dr. Park Shi On...
He's a very attractive character.
Trying to overcome autism and become a doctor...
A genius with savant syndrome.
Very dramatic...
The patients won't be so against him in the clinical pathology department.
There's no other doctor better fit for this position than Dr. Park.
The media will show a huge interest, too.
It will be international news.
You want to use Dr. Park as a marketing tool for the hospital?
Don't take it the wrong way.
I only mean the best.
A doctor is not a celebrity.
Professor Kim, the world has changed.
Doctors should be in the spotlight, too.
That doesn't change the fact that they heal patients.
I will pretend that I didn't hear any of what you said today.
Echo...
Heta Vizen.
When given to children, it's been reported to cause cholestasis, pancreatitis, and hemorrhage.
Drainage tube...
You know...
Professor Kim wants me to perform my first official surgery.
The last two were temporary.
Wow, congratulations.
But, I'm scared.
I thought I was over everything.
You've overcome everything. You don't need to be scared.
Will I do a good job?
You'll do a great job. I believe in you, too.
Thank you.
I didn't say anything.
But, I know everything. Exactly what you said...
That's amazing.
I really hope everything will go well.
When I perform the surgery, you need to come in, too.
If I have a hard time...
You have to say, 'There's a problem. You have to hurry.'
Okay?
This is a big problem.
Let's go to the hospital tomorrow, and get it checked out.
Lift up your shirt, so I can check you.
No.
- Let me see. - No.
What's that?
Isn't Eun Ok cute?
She's cute, but I feel bad for her.
She can't talk.
And she has nobody next to her.
But, strangely I feel better when I see her.
She's going through hard times, but she always smiles when she sees me.
Your mom smiles at you, too.
No.
She only smiles when I win an award.
I can't remember the last time I smiled.
Look at me.
I want to hear you continue to sing.
It's so beautiful.
But, do you know what I want to hear more?
Your laughter.
I'm not sure what would make you more happy.
But, one thing is for sure.
You can only laugh if you are healthy.
Mom will be happy, too, when she hears you laughing later.
Maybe even more than when you are singing.
Don't cry.
Everything will be okay.
I received the files you sent.
We need to start taking care of them one by one.
Thank you.
You are the one who reported the Heta Vizen incident to the FDA, right?
What?
What kind of nonsense...
This is your phone record for the past week.
There's even a direct phone number to the FDA.
It's been confirmed that you provided the information.
If you were going to use someone, you should have used someone unrelated to this.
You were secretly doing all this?
For the sake of your relationship to the late chairman, we are going to wrap this up quietly.
What if I can't end this quietly?
Do as you wish.
There's no records of use of Heta Vizen at the hospital.
And strictly speaking...
your brother-in-law is responsible for that.
You are all in this to get me.
I'll leave.
But...
you'll regret this.
Wait and see.
Hyuk Pil.
If you took care of it, I wouldn't have gone through this!
I'm sorry.
You take care of yourself now.
I don't care what happens to you anymore!
Hyuk Pil.
And don't ever come to my house again.
Hyuk Pil.
Hyuk Pil!
Park Shi On.
Come here.
You should take care of yourself.
If your collar is messy, you look really disheveled.
Thank you.
What are you saying?
You don't want to leave?
Are you in your right mind?
I won't leave until I'm all better.
We have to depart the country next week.
We need to get ready starting today.
I'm not going to Germany.
You...
And, I'm going to have the surgery.
What?
Even if I go to Germany, I won't be happy.
Even if I can't sing after the surgery, I want to live happily.
I want to go to school, and meet with friends.
I want to eat what I want to eat.
Be quiet! I'm doing this for you.
Please listen to Kyu Wan.
You should stay out of this.
Why won't you listen to Kyu Wan? If you don't listen, he'll feel suffocated.
- Get changed. - No, I won't go to Germany.
- Hurry and get changed. - I won't leave the hospital.
I'm not going to Germany, and I'm going to have the surgery.
Let him be. Even if he has the surgery, he will be able to sing...
It's nothing.
A doctor is not a religious leader.
You should never give any unfounded hope.
No. I can't.
I can't say that.
No.
What do you mean discharge when we didn't even allow it?
The mom's throwing a fit, but the child's staying put.
Can you please leave?
The doctors here...
Do they normally make people this sick and tired?
Do you know something?
When I was young, we used to have a puppy at our house.
When it would snow a lot, the puppy would run around in the yard.
I used to think that the puppy was jumping around because he liked the snow.
But, that wasn't it.
The puppy was jumping around because his paws were so cold.
Kyu Wan is like that puppy.
You think Kyu Wan sings because he enjoys it.
But, Kyu Wan is cold.
That's why he sings louder.
Children are good.
Even if they don't want to, they force themselves to do what is asked of them.
But, doing something by force is not good.
I hate that, too.
But...
Even if she forces me to do things I don't like...
I wish my mom was next to me.
Even if she forces me to do things I hate...
Do you really have to hurt me like this?
I don't want to hurt you.
That's why I want to have the surgery.
I...
I want to laugh.
Like when I used to go to kindergarten, and the time I rode on the carousel.
I want to laugh like that.
I don't hate you.
I was just upset.
Because you didn't know how I felt at all.
I'm sorry, mom.
Why are you sorry?
Dr. Cha.
What is it?
Can you perform the surgery on Kyu Wan?
I know Professor Kim is good.
But, I think it would be better if you perform the surgery.
Why would it be better?
For some reason, I think you would help Kyu Wan's dreams come true.
No, I don't have those abilities.
And the diagnosis has already been made.
I want to help.
If that situation arises, I want to help.
Instead of just standing around, I want to help with the surgery.
You really think you can help?
I want to perform Kyu Wan's surgery.
As my first formal surgery.
I've never performed this kind of surgery. And it's the first kind in the hospital.
That's why I think it's better. It will be a first for anyone.
I'm not just saying that I want to give myself a new challenge.
I want to try my best to protect Kyu Wan's dreams.
As much as you are worried, I know that you trust me.
So...
Please allow me to perform the surgery.
You are slow at making decisions today.
Are you confident?
Yes, Professor Kim.
Kyu Wan's surgery is not life-threatening.
However, the area is so small that we won't know exactly until we open it up.
There's another important thing.
This surgery will be an exchange of a child's health for his talents.
I normally don't consider the patient's personal situation in performing surgeries...
But, this surgery must be something that Kyu Wan will appreciate for the rest of his life.
Do you understand, Dr. Cha?
Yes.
Professor Kim.
I want my first assistant to be Dr. Park.
No.
Isn't it the performing surgeon's choice to choose the first assistant?
Still, no.
I will talk to him.
You didn't hear what I said?
I heard.
You are going to switch departments. You don't need to go into surgery.
This is my last dream, too.
Just like Kyu Wan, this is my last chance.
That's why I want to be with him.
I will allow your attendance.
I don't just want to attend. I want to participate.
What if you have another spasm?
Then, I'll leave the surgery room.
If that's going to happen, you shouldn't go in at all.
Why can't you trust me?
You don't hate me because I made a mistake.
You hate me because you think I'm going to make a mistake.
I won't make a mistake.
Never.
Just keep your promise.
If you have a spasm, you are out immediately.
Thank you.
Yes!
Yi On.
To be honest, I'm nervous.
But, I'll be okay, right?
You're going to help me, right?
You're really not upset?
How can Dr. Cha ask for Park Shi On instead of you?
I'm not upset. I was a first assistant my first year, too.
But, you are different from Park Shi On.
Yeah, we are different.
Park Shi On may be better than me.
Since we are on the topic, let's make something clear.
Hyun Woo, Sung Ho, and Dong Soo...
Who helped them overcome their crisis?
And who helped Eun Ok talk?
Tell me, Woo Il Gyu.
Yeah, it's true that Park Shi On is a troublemaker.
But, because of that we all forgot that he helped all those children.
No, we didn't acknowledge it.
We only cared about our feelings.
Hey, Dr. Park.
Yes.
During the surgery, you think you will think of a way for Kyu Wan to continue singing?
Yes.
I mean...
I might.
Did you tell Kyu Wan?
No.
Why not?
I didn't have the conviction.
You were not like that with Sung Ho or Dong Soo.
Professor Kim told me not to give patients any unfounded hope.
That's why I didn't tell Kyu Wan.
I'm so happy these days... just watching you grow.
Hey!
Have some of mine.
Thank you.
If we can find the fistula, we may be able to save the nerve by twisting the thyroid cartilage.
Are you looking over Kyu Wan's case?
Are you checking it over because you can't trust me?
Yeah, so what?
I'll do well, so you don't attack me.
I'm going.
Cha Yoon Seo.
- Congratulations on your first surgery. - Thank you.
Eun Ok!
Do what you learned before, Eun Ok.
Be... strong...
Eun Ok.
It's hard for Kyu Wan to sing right now.
We have a special guest with us today.
It's Kim Kyu Wan who is hospitalized in the pediatrics surgery department.
He is famous on the internet for his heavenly voice.
Our first song starts with Kim Kyu Wan's live stage.
Mom, when I become healthy after the surgery, please grant me one wish.
Professor Kim.
I didn't come to perform the surgery. I'm just going to watch.
- Start. - Yes, sir.
- Army navy. - Army navy.
Forceps.
Bovie.
- Suction. - Suction.
We are going to remove the fistula.
There are infections around the thyroid area.
But we may not have to sever the thyroid.
Start from where you can see the fistula.
Yes, sir.
Kyu Wan.
I will help you to hold onto your dreams.
I will do that.
The fistula is all removed.
Will it be okay to continue?
Be careful. That way is to the front of the cartilage.
It may be difficult to salvage the laryngeal nerve.
Okay. Mixter.
Hold on.
What is it?
Kyu Wan can sing.
We can make Kyu Wan's dreams come true.
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Don't you think he's changed in the last day or two?
I didn't say that Professor Kim will perform the surgery.
Starting tomorrow, stay on call 24 hours at the hospital.
Congratulations.
Even the parts that are covered up?
What are you looking at? Where did you look?
- What don't you know? - I don't know the meaning of those words.
- How can you do that? - Worse things will happen in the future.
- You didn't tell her your feelings? - You have a beautiful heart.
There's something you must do if you want my acknowledgment.